daydreaming

i don't know what i'm going to do right now..suddenly i feel sad..maybe what i hope to be didn't work as it should be..hmm..it looks like i'm gonna stay at home until july as i'm not calling for any jobs..huhu..it's quite sad actually..yeah i want to earn my own money..huh...this holiday is bored..nothing much to do..if i want to hangout with my friends i still need money..maybe mom will give me some money but i want to stand on my own feet..yeahh...sometimes i feel tired waiting for something that seems like impossible to be..is it worth for me to wait my dear diary??i don't know..off...