last note

i've done packing my stuff and will be leaving home tomorrow..it's so hard as  i feel this sem holiday was different in which i really enjoyed every moment i had..even i'm not going anywhere but i still love spending my time at home..goodbye my parents and my siblings...and i will always miss u~~

my last words..

tomorrow is friday and that means i will end my semester holiday and going back to uitm..existing but not living...how i hate this moment..be cool yasmin.pretending being a happy-go-lucky girl but inside it's not what u'r expecting..and now i'm fighting with my own emotion , conflict of myself...haish...i become mad!!long2 time ago when i was in my childhood years i was always wanted to be an independent girl..don't want to put all my dependancies on my parents..but as time goes by, i always need my parents to be on my side...btw i would like to congratulate to malaysian team for winning the suzuki cup..one thing that i realised all malaysian said this "i'm proud to be malaysian"..but i would like to remind u and also myself that being a patriotic is not only when we win the cup or etc, but all times..emm maybe i can be a patriotic person by thinking positively that new sem will be the unforgettable memories..=)

AL CAPONE

have u ever heard of the name of AL CAPONE? for those who have heard his name he was a notorious murder of America. he  was also known as Robin Hood as he often treated people fairly by giving food to the poor and many more. he was also pretended to be a doctor to treat his patients in order for him to hide his true identity. his most unforgettable muder was st. valentines massacre on 14th feb 1929..and i never doubt why muslim can't celebrate valentine's day as it was the day when st. valentine was murdered...the police found it difficult to arrest him as he was always had alibi during those notorious killer took happened..and during this time we can see how any dirty tricks played by al capone for his released. he tried to bribe the jury so that he will be released and acquitted from all charges..so for more information u can click on these links..

http://www.chicagohs.org/history/capone/cpn4.html
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Al_Capone

do u know why i'm interested with his story?? it's because i suddenly remembered Night At The Museum 2...if u had noticed, there're characters of al capone..and that enlightened me to search and google for more information about him..:)happy reading..

i'll be there

i'll be there-jackson 5

the secret

i got no mood to start my new sem

WHY??

i don't really sure the answer..

do i fear for myself?

new semester means new subject need to be learned

and i'm afraid of being demotivated

why?/

i'm not sure but it seems that i won't find my happiness

i love my home i really love it

even sometimes i would like to kill myself when i was bored

to kill the boredem

but i still love my home

why i feel demotivated??

the answer remain closed in my heart

and only me have the key to the secret passage of my heart

so let me reveal this secret myself

and fight back~~

pictures

ni la bdk laki group aku yg sgtla sengal..tp diorg best!!

ni lak my girl friends..best sgt dpt knl diorg

gambar group ktorg..platun 1 a.k.a Mozart...ktprg sgt rapat and best dpt satu group dgn korg yg mcm2 ragam!!! miss u all..

conclusion: sy sgt suka group LIBB sy ni..sgt sporting and tiap kali msuk baris of course aku kna dok dpn...tapi LIBB mmg pengalaman yg sgt indah buat aku..kna torture mlm2 mmg sgt perit la...kna dok sparuh la and mcm2 lagi..plg x boleh lupa ade futsal match inter group...cmpur laki n pmpuan main bola..mmg la mcm ape kn?hahhahah..tibe2 je junpa gambar ni sbb spnjg training ktorg x boleh bwk phone or brg2 digital..ni gmbr curi dri komander punye facebook...btw, i really miss all the time that we spend together!!

transformer ~

transformation..

i need to transform to a new farah yasmin

leave the old yasmin

forget the past

always look forward for the future

a better future

be futuristic

u have a very long journey and it will never end

even u die u still have the after life

so life is endless

a bundle of problems are waiting for u

if u're not strong enough

then u will stuck in the middle of your road

so what u'r waiting for

keep on moving

keep on crawling

and keep on running

until u find the end of this road....

shopping again..

just now went shopping with my mother,brother and sisters..i think i should stop from spending lots of money on shopping..this holiday i spend my time going to jusco for shopping..hahaha...i spend about RM 100+ at MPH..i bought few books such as Rayyan Fantasi written by Ramlee Awang Murshed, P/S I LOVE U and two novels of Harry Potter..already read all HP books but not my books..so just a collection of HP books..then once again i bought a shawl for myself and a tudung for my mom..as a gift..and after this i hope no more shopping for me...if not i will be spending lots of money...

my little thought 2

• Rasulullah SAW bersabda: "Bersemangatlah untuk memperoleh apa yang bermanfaat bagimu dan minta tolonglah kepada Allah dan janganlah lemah. Bila menimpa mu sesuatu (dari perkara yang tidak disukai) janganlah engkau berkata "Seandainya aku melakukan ini nescaya akan begini dan begitu," akan tetapi katakanlah: "Allah menetapkan dan apa yang Dia inginkan Dia akan lakukan," karena sesungguhnya kalimat 'seandainya' itu  membuka amalan syaitan." (Hadis Riwayat Muslim)

• "Lihatlah orang yang di bawah kamu dan jangan melihat orang yang di atas kamu karena dengan (melihat ke bawah) lebih pantas untuk kamu tidak meremehkan nikmat Allah yang dilimpahkan-Nya kepada kamu." (Hadis Riwayat Al-Bukhari dan Muslim)

•  "Tidak ada kebaikan dalam kebanyakan bisikan-bisikan mereka kecuali bisikan-bisikan dari orang yang menyuruh ( manusia) untuk bersedekah atau berbuat kebaikan dan ketaatan atau memperbaiki hubungan di antara manusia. Barang siapa melakukan hal itu karena mengharapkan keredaan Allah, nescaya kelak Kami akan berikan padanya pahala yang besar." (Surah An-Nisa: 114)

•  "Ketahuilah dengan mengingat (berzikir) kepada Allah akan tenang hati itu." (Surah Ar-Ra'd: 28)

shopping with my mama...

emm today i went shopping with my mom..i bought 2 pairs of jeans for my little brother as a present for his birthday..then we made a tour around jusco and looked for shoes,bags and shirts...then after 1 hour i still couldn't find what i want...so we went to mcd and had our lunch...after that we made a tour once again and finally i bought some shirts and a bag...yeepee!!!

i'm not showing off ya..just my pleasure to do so...some motivation i think..heheheh...

my little thought..

when i feel sad, i will laugh

when i laugh doesn't mean i'm in a good mood

when i feel sad, i like to hide it

when i hide it, i don't want people to bother me

when i feel sad, i'm starting looking at myself and ask:

"hey you what's the point of being sad"

and i answer,

"then what u want me to be"

the answer is:

"look at the sun, it shines and when time comes, the shines fade and no sunshine.and the moon comes..even the moon comes the sun still shine every day..keep on shining on people who needed.."

then i was stunned...

redha..

sometimes when we lost something we become depressed..we start thinking about ourselves and start looking for anything to be blamed..i want to share the word 'redha'..i'm not saying about people but just a reminder for us...sometimes when i lost something i start to think negatives..too much to be blamed..and started to rebel..hahhaha..to show my dissatisfaction..started imagining myself went to do something stupid...however i will always have this word (redha)in myself...when i started thinking by brain not my emotion then i know that i hve to accept for whatever things that already happened..i don't know either this type of behavior is good or bad..ther'r people said that sometimes we need to defence ourselves..not just redha..some says if i want to become a good lawyer i need to remove this type of thinking..i don't know??in my opinion, if we had done our best and we didn't get what we want then i need to redha...but sometimes instinct  will lead us to the truth..but sometimes we're wrong..so, that's why we need to redha and leave to Allah...

tagged by nani..

1. Apa benda paling penting dalam hidup korang?

novel kot..

2. Benda terakhir yang korang beli guna duit korang?
shawl..

3. Dimanakah tempat korang akan langsungkan perkahwinan korang dan apakah temanya nanti?
xtau lg...bf pon tarak..maybe rumah la..unless aku kwen ngn ank datuk..hhahah..tema tradisional...ceewah..

4. Adakah korang sedang bercinta sekarang?

emm x mungkin...hhahah...kwn2 shj...

5. Berapa lama korang akan mencintai kekasih korang?
slma mungkin la...bercinta skali n forver..hahhah...

6. Di manakah korang selalu jumpa kekasih korang?
xpnh pon sbb xde bf..

7. Novel/buku/majalah terakhir dibeli?
the lovely bones...3 weeks ago..

8. Apakah nama penuh korang?
farah yasmin binti abd. radzak

9. Antara mak dan ayah, mana korang lebih mesra?
dua2..mak slalu jd kwn shopping..ayh tmpt mintak brg..hhhaha..

10. Namakan orang yang betul2 korang nak jumpa dalam hidup korang?
sape ek? nabi muhammad la...

11. Adakah korang basuh baju korang sendiri?
yup..klu kt hostel la..klu kt umh washing machine je..

12. Dimanakah tempat yang betul2 korang nak pergi?
ireland..

13. Pilih salah satu, peluk atau cium?
pelukan mak n ayah

14. Beritahu 3 benda tentang orang yang beri tag?
die kwn shopping sy mse kt uitm

die sgt ceria..hahhaha..

we'r best friends...:)

15. 5 benda yang paling disayangi dalam hidup anda?

novel,sambal belacan,lappy,hphone n baju2...

16. Lagu yang paling anda suka dan selalu dengar?
unintended...

17. Bila tarikh lahir dan kat mana korang sambut tahun lepas?

28th may...last year smbut kt rumah..xpnh smbut ngn frens...

18. 5 rakan Blogger yang korang nak tag a.k.a suspek2 yang perlu di cari...

nurul hidayah

faten khairiyah

k.emy

bella

shila

 

dreaming

just now i watched video clips from youtube...searching for songs played by flute..watched how they played those songs and it make me feel like having my own flute...if i'm not mistaken one flute cost about rm 2000..maybe if u'r good in negotiating u can get rm1000++...so i started dreaming of having my own flute...hahhaha....actually i started played flute since i was in my 2ndry school..but due to some reasons i quit when i was in f2..so it has been 6 years...luckily i can still remember all notes...then i'm expecting my next sem will be more busy than 1st sem...so need to prepare mentally and physically so that i can go through all the business ...good luck!!!

good news!!!jpa dh masuk...so already registered my tabung haji...before this already got my saving account but didn't register for hajj as thre's still not enough money..so i used my jpa to register tbg haji...alhamdulillah...and maybe i need to go back to uitm earlier than i had planned because i have law programme..ok..so will be two weeks from now...not really two weeks actually...need to start packing and thinking about next sem with new life...

three types of people

i would like to share what i got from my reading...just flip through the tafsir..i looked through surah al-Baqarah....the first few words of this surah told us about three types of persons in this world..first is the mu'min,then kafir and lastly the munafik...the mu'min are those who obeyed and followed al-quran and sunnah...the kafir are those who still didn't get the hidayah from allah..those who granted a hidayah from allah are those who very lucky...munafik are those who said that they'r muslim but they are lied..we called them as talam dua muka..or hypochrate...hoping that we are in the first type of people..may Allah blessed all of us...insyaallah...

no one at home!!ok...that's a lie...there'r my little brother and sisters..but i feel lonely...geram!!because my 13th year old sister went for shopping with her friends...she said she wanted to buy her school bag..i don't have friends within my area as i was not getting my primary and secondary education here...i was in the other school..no wonder i don't have any friends..sometimes i feel jealous seeing my other siblings hang out with their friends...and i??sitting alone at home..dush2!!!reading novel, blogging, facebooking, sleeping and watching tv..ok next semester holiday i need to do sthg so that i won't feel bored..maybe i can find a job...hahhha...i'm not a big fan of korean movies..so i don't know what to do..just now my mom called from langkawi..she said she bought me a blouse..tq mommy!!i feel jealous seeing my friends enjoying their jpa scholar's by travelling to kl...when will i get my jpa??too bored..ok tomorrow is my brother's birthday..his 17th birthday...maybe i will bake him a cake..as i don't know what to do..lallalalal...

what my heart is saying..

i hate this!!!!i hate this!!!not because i don't try to understand....i tried to understand but i couldn't stand this thing..this thing totally made me crazy!!!oh i really love this song..*unintended by muse....with flute and this piano version..mmg sgt sesuai ngn jiwa aku....if i sad i will listen  to this song..and now i'm listening to this song..klu gembira pon ske dgr lgu ni....ya Allah show me which path should i follow...i'm in delima ya Allah...please give me courage and patient to choose the best for my life...

saya sangat bosan!!!huhuhhu..too bored...i'm dead now..huhuh...oh mr.jpa please give me some money...i want to go for shopping!!moving around my house..upstairs to downstairs...going to the kitchen...doing some cooking for my family...upstairs again...surfing the internet...bored...no friends to chit chat...now blogging..huhuu..after this???praying then continue reading the lovely bones..then??sleeping...ohhh!!my mom wasn't around..she went to langkawi last sunday..will be back on wednesday...now i need my mom...to accompany me for shopping...do hoping for some money from JPA...huhhu...and then i can start shopping...and buy my things...i'm a shopaholic girl...too bored this holiday...need to buy new bag as i think i should replace my cuteshop bag...need to go to tabung haji to do some saving...that's my dream ok....to perform hajj using my own money...doing umrah first with mom n dad...will take my driving licence at shah alam...as not enough time now...emm i think this holiday i wasn't go anywhere...just go to s.alam for LIBB...hoping to go on holiday with my family as i think it has been a long time i haven't go on holiday...last time i remembered was going on holiday to cameron highlands...after my spm.....ok people, i feel sleepy now...wanna hve a nice dream...hheheheh:)

waiting and hoping

lagi 3 minggu je dh nk start new semester..so that's mean i wil get new friends,new class and new lecturers...but i don't find it's interesting as i still missing my old classmates of lwa01/02b...degree is not like asasi where i enjoyed every moment i had with my friends..especially my clssmtes..i still can remember how i gone through my degree without fun...until i met nurus...when i met her, i got my happiness however when she extended her sem, i started feeling lonely..that's why i hope next sem i will be in the same class with phana..we both like to respond to lecturer during lecture time...same with nurus...so will my new semester be an enjoyable or dull???i hope the first...oh people u don't know how i was during my 1st sem...alone went to brass band...alone went to class....i tried to be such a loner person but i know i need at least a friend..just one friend that can keep accompany me...seriously i felt lonely especially after nurus gone...only after class i started 'lepaking' with phana and her roommates..thanks sa'dy,nani n syasya....:)....and i started doing all loner person activities such as went to SACC mall alone,ate kfc alone and many activities...at first i didn't care much however, after long time i felt crazy!!! so i hope next sem will be more meaningfull moment...

allah with us..

kadang2 bile kite dpt something yg kita x sangka kite akn terlepas sthg yg kita harapkan...btolla kite x boleh dpt dua benda dlm satu mase...kecuali dgn izin allah...emm i feel useless due to something that happened to me...yeah i got award for my brass band which was unexpected but i lost something that i desired long2 time ago..it feels like u'r at the end of ur life...hurt,depressed and all the negative feelings keep on weighing on my mind...until one time i think that i want to change my course..i don't mean to be a lawyer...got high marks for my test didn't guarantee for getting high pointer for final right??if i don't use my sane mind and keep on thinking that way, maybe  i will do all those stupid things...alhamdulillah iman and taqwa still in my heart..so i will not do anything stupid and will remove all those negative thinkings...i will find back my strengths and fight back today..maybe allah didn't give me those because he wants to give me more..yasmin, there's no people who become a successful man without failure...be grateful for whatever Allah gives u...always be prepared for ur future...insyaallah u will get something more than u expected...amin....i will always remember, Allah tak akan menguji seseorang ujian yang x mampu dihadapinya...and that's why Allah gave u this, because He knows u...

bersyukur dgn ape yang ada farah yasmin!!chaiyok2!!!never ever give up and always think positive...no matter how hard it is..u have to be strong..allah knows everything...di sebalik setiap kesusahan, kepayahan terselit kenikmatan allah...bersyukur and redha for everuthing we got...insyaallah u will get more than u expected...amin..

me and myself

after 3 days at home i start feel bored...luckily i bought a new novel titled "THE LOVELY BONES" by Alice Sebold...so now i'm reading this novel..actually i had watched the movie but i love reading novel rather than watching the movie..today is 8th dec so it will be not more than a month before new semester begins...i don't really know what i've done this holiday...i finished reading the gift and still continue reading sherlock holmes...went to LIBB for 10 days..and now i'm home..i still not sure yet either to be a member of PERPAKES(brass band club) or just join this band until my 3rd sem...my father seems to encourage me joining this band untill my final year...if that so, i need to sacrifice my tuesday night practising...it's not a very big problem if i can manage my time wisely...as a law student and brass band's members..i need to rearrange my schedule to make sure that i know what to do...ok chaiyok2 yasmin.!!

LIBB 2010

i just returned home from uitm...ok i  got LIBB OR LATIHAN INTENSIF BRASS BAND..ok 10 days at that camp totally made me exhausted...just imagine i need to practice music every day, from morning till night..ok let's check out my 10 days activities..ok to make it short, i play flute..i'm a flutist...hhhaah..ok at first,there're five of us,(me,yana,izzani,azah and rose)however on the third days of practise, rose quite from playing flute as she got athma so she couldn't blow the flute...then just 4 of us...we need to wake up early in the morning and start doing physical training..jogging for about five rounds per day to build our stamina...as many blowers need to control their breathing...then after breakfast we start practise playing flute..at first we learned scaling..(do,re,mi,fa,so,la,ti,do)...as many of the flutist already had the experience playing flute, we didn't have any problems...we continued practising until evening...at 5 o'clock, we start practising marching annd playing instrument..at night, we had what we called as 'penyatuan', that means all the instrument will form an orchestra and playing together...usually we will end our practise at 11...after that sleeping...hehheh..ok...along this 10 days practise , we were learned many songs such as, hormat,negaraku,uitm di hatiku, wawasan setia pelajar,hamidah,perajurit,puteri bersiram, when the saint samudera raya and new song, malaysia baru...alhamdulillah i managed to play all these songs,,,on the 7th day of LIBB, at night we were totured by our seniors..we  need to do many mental and physical torture,..many of us couldn't stand this however i managed to do all those things..on the 8th day, we start doing rehearsal for our closing ceremony...on the 9th day, we performed in front of public...i felt satisfied for myself...i also got "PELATIH TERBAIK FLUTE" for this LIBB...alhamdulilllah..so at night we had a barbeque and on the 10th day, after berakfast i left uitm and went back home....