a love story

when i see your face i feel very guilty...
i don't know when the feelings occur...
i feel like i wanna cry right now..
yes u make me feel sick
u had already run away with my heart..
i don't know whether u will feel the same
i guess it's not...
maybe it's only me
and i know it will impossible to happen
and i know u won't let it happen
but how about me?
every time i see u
every moment spending with u
is the unforgettable moment for me..
i know u won't treat me more than friend
but how i want to get rid of these feelings??
i tried my best
but i couldn't
do u know that?
and i feel hurt because i can't be your best friends
i hope that we're meant to be together
but it was too impossible
and i know i was nobody
i should try to forget u
but it's hard...
i'm sorry for being like this
and i won't tell u
let me keep it as a secret
that will be better...


p/s : i get it from  a friend of mine...and feel sorry for her..i don't know if i wan in her shoes...would i doing the same thing??hhaa....

trap

i feel guilty for what i did..
do u know that i'm not intended to say those words??
i don't know why i'm too sensitive with u..
i want to be your best friend..
but sometimes u always make me sick
i got feelings and these feelings were too sensitive..
i know that u will never look at me..
i'm just an ordinary girl..
do you know what i feel??
only me myself know it
the feelings grown
and i don't know how to clear it off
every time i try to forget
i feel guilty
i would like to let u know
but i won't do it
let keep it safe
only allah and me can reveal the secret
u'r too kind
and i'm not perfect person..

p/s: i do hope that i make it clear friends=)

the broken pieces

when i looked into your eyes
it makes me feel speechless
you'r staring at me
with your big black eyes
i feel guilty every time i'm looking at u
i tried to reach your heart through your eyes
and deep down in your heart
there's a sincerety
which makes me feel guilty for every thousands times
our eyes were met
i keep asking myself
why did this thing happened to me?
why i can't say yes for every words that comes from ur lips?
it's not easy to make this choice
but i have to
for the sake of our future
now i become the notorous murderer
killing one soul without gun
i'm greater than other murderers
that pure heart of yours
broken into pieces
do i have to mend those broken pieces?
i don't think i can
there might come an angel
healing ur wounds
and i do pray for it..

the feeling's gone..
i hate such words
but i'm one of them now
i'm hating being like this
i don't know what to do
should i just run away
if i run away the problem's still in my mind
keep on touching my heart
my little tiny heart
never ever be like this anymore
but u'r too kind to be hurt
or i'm too kind to hurt u
will always be like this
heartless
i don't want to hope and to be hoped
i'm sorry
this is me
the way that i choose
will never have an end

the secret

i got no mood to start my new sem

WHY??

i don't really sure the answer..

do i fear for myself?

new semester means new subject need to be learned

and i'm afraid of being demotivated

why?/

i'm not sure but it seems that i won't find my happiness

i love my home i really love it

even sometimes i would like to kill myself when i was bored

to kill the boredem

but i still love my home

why i feel demotivated??

the answer remain closed in my heart

and only me have the key to the secret passage of my heart

so let me reveal this secret myself

and fight back~~

transformer ~

transformation..

i need to transform to a new farah yasmin

leave the old yasmin

forget the past

always look forward for the future

a better future

be futuristic

u have a very long journey and it will never end

even u die u still have the after life

so life is endless

a bundle of problems are waiting for u

if u're not strong enough

then u will stuck in the middle of your road

so what u'r waiting for

keep on moving

keep on crawling

and keep on running

until u find the end of this road....