trap

i feel guilty for what i did..
do u know that i'm not intended to say those words??
i don't know why i'm too sensitive with u..
i want to be your best friend..
but sometimes u always make me sick
i got feelings and these feelings were too sensitive..
i know that u will never look at me..
i'm just an ordinary girl..
do you know what i feel??
only me myself know it
the feelings grown
and i don't know how to clear it off
every time i try to forget
i feel guilty
i would like to let u know
but i won't do it
let keep it safe
only allah and me can reveal the secret
u'r too kind
and i'm not perfect person..

p/s: i do hope that i make it clear friends=)

the thing is....

when times come
there will be no turning back
sometimes we get upset with life
life won't be so easy
the way we think isn't the same
different ideas and different thoughts
sometimes we were right
but we may be wrong
words give a thousands meaning
the way we talk
will be taken into consideration
when we feel down
we need a stair to climb the hill
there may be people crawling on the hill

some may running up to the hill

or
there may be someone who just look at the hill

without any intention to get to the peak of the hill
which types of person i am??

i'm the combinations of all
to get into the peak
i might be crawling, running or i just looking at
that what life is
when we tired we stop doing things
but it not the end of our life
because life has no ends...

poem

when i see u    
when i need u
u'r staring at me
it's been a very long time since i never seen ur face
your staring eyes
make me wonder of myself
 
am i in your heart?
or i'm not
after that moment
all the memories return
like a film
i've been recalling a movie
a movie that u'r created
where i'm the heroin
all the hatred
the happiness
the sadness
it was mixed up
like a lollipop
full of colours
i'm confused
but i know
allah is the greatest
he's a good director
there will be reasons
and the reason is
YOU...


p/s: there's nothing to do with me..it's very subjective...:)

mr and mrs

mr depression and loneliness
please go away from my life
i don't need u to be my friends
i will go looking for new boyfriends and girlfriends
mr and mrs happy will accompany me
throughout my journey
mr and mrs strong will be my companion
so that i will be an iron lady
no need to be friend with mrs coward
because i choose my friends
friends are reflections of myself..

the broken pieces

when i looked into your eyes
it makes me feel speechless
you'r staring at me
with your big black eyes
i feel guilty every time i'm looking at u
i tried to reach your heart through your eyes
and deep down in your heart
there's a sincerety
which makes me feel guilty for every thousands times
our eyes were met
i keep asking myself
why did this thing happened to me?
why i can't say yes for every words that comes from ur lips?
it's not easy to make this choice
but i have to
for the sake of our future
now i become the notorous murderer
killing one soul without gun
i'm greater than other murderers
that pure heart of yours
broken into pieces
do i have to mend those broken pieces?
i don't think i can
there might come an angel
healing ur wounds
and i do pray for it..

dal centro della mia vita venne una grande fontana....
"from the centre of my life there came a great fountain.."

how i loved those words..it's an italian language..it really gives me thousands of meanings..

Fire and Ice a poem by Robert Frost

FIRE AND ICE

Some say the world will end in fire,
Some say in ice.
From what I've tasted of desire
I hold with those who favour fire.
But if it had to perish twice,
I think I know enough of hate
To say that for destruction ice
Is also great
And would suffice.