mr and mrs

mr depression and loneliness
please go away from my life
i don't need u to be my friends
i will go looking for new boyfriends and girlfriends
mr and mrs happy will accompany me
throughout my journey
mr and mrs strong will be my companion
so that i will be an iron lady
no need to be friend with mrs coward
because i choose my friends
friends are reflections of myself..

the broken pieces

when i looked into your eyes
it makes me feel speechless
you'r staring at me
with your big black eyes
i feel guilty every time i'm looking at u
i tried to reach your heart through your eyes
and deep down in your heart
there's a sincerety
which makes me feel guilty for every thousands times
our eyes were met
i keep asking myself
why did this thing happened to me?
why i can't say yes for every words that comes from ur lips?
it's not easy to make this choice
but i have to
for the sake of our future
now i become the notorous murderer
killing one soul without gun
i'm greater than other murderers
that pure heart of yours
broken into pieces
do i have to mend those broken pieces?
i don't think i can
there might come an angel
healing ur wounds
and i do pray for it..

dal centro della mia vita venne una grande fontana....
"from the centre of my life there came a great fountain.."

how i loved those words..it's an italian language..it really gives me thousands of meanings..

the feeling's gone..
i hate such words
but i'm one of them now
i'm hating being like this
i don't know what to do
should i just run away
if i run away the problem's still in my mind
keep on touching my heart
my little tiny heart
never ever be like this anymore
but u'r too kind to be hurt
or i'm too kind to hurt u
will always be like this
heartless
i don't want to hope and to be hoped
i'm sorry
this is me
the way that i choose
will never have an end

esok balik!!

currently at my cousin's house at sek 3..tomorrow i will be going back to my hometown..how i miss my family so much!!!stlh bertahun lmenye x blik jb mmbuat aku x sbr gile nk balik ni...dgn dugaan yg dtg bertalu2 ni..mmg rse nk je cite semua mslh kt emak...and x sbr nk bershopping ngn mak...sbb mak adalah fashion designer sy..hehheh...and sy nk blnja emak...mak ckp mk nk beg tgn..so balik ni nk berterumba ngn mak..yeepee!!

coretan

salah aku ke?grrr...aish tolongla faham...bkn senang nk puaskan hati semua org...haish tibe2 ade orang nak marah lak kn...ni yang wat aku emo ni..huhuhu....haish x sngka gurauan aku jd pencetus kemarahan org..hhahaha...asal la aku ni jahat sgtkn...org serius aku main2...buat mr.x, maafla eh..tak berniat ape2 pon...haish nila padahnye bergurau..so kawan2 ingatlah ye bukan semua gurauan kite tu boleh diterima org....sometimes i was thinking..betulkah aku nak tunggu??haish..persoalan yang cukup berat..bukan xnk tggu tp aku xyakin dgn diri sendiri..sbb aku pon xtau perasaan dan pendirian diri sendiri...oh ye most of my friends will be going to oversea this year...and i don't know either i will be missing them or not? rase sedih pulak sbb xdpt nk fly sama2..huhuu...teringat impian kami time sekolah dulu.."nanti kite sama2 fly eh..buat medic sama2",,,huhuhu...time tu aku kecik lagi mmg nampak nk jd doktor je...but after spm...my friend got the offer..doing medic at oversea...and i??? i got the offered to do my law foundation and i managed to do my degree in law...tak bersyukurkah aku??mmg aku bersyukur cuma kdg2 kenangan lama tu dtg menyinggah..untuk kuatkan semangat,,"all is well" ala2 cerita 3 idiots...maybe rezeki kita xsampai lg kan...dan untuk awak yang bakal fly nanti...congratulations and do achieve your dream...that's what friends are,,

eating,,,

surfing internet, blogging and facebooking,,,

 reading manga series,,

 

watching movies,,

sleeping,,,,

so....

bile nak study ni farah yasmin....

aissh....semangat x tggu ko lah....

ko yg kna cari semangat tu sendiri...

xtau asal gambar ni jd cmni..ni pon curik cousin nye..hahah....lantakle kome..

chaiyok2!!!

xtreme park..

ni bru lps rock climbing..hehhehe....

peace!!bru lps trun dri flying fox

sclc family....theme: merah hitam

again..we'r happy family:)

ni adlh k.long kami ea..and aku tgh wat pe ntah..hahha...

yesterday i went to xtreme park at seksyen 13...and it was so fun and exciting!!! i really enjoyed my day doing those adventurous activities like flying fox, rock climbing and archery...i was thinking of going to the xtreme park once again..maybe it could be my monthly routine...i really enjoyed doing rock climbing!!!..tonight i have band practise...huhuhu...i do hope of learning new songs...all my bodies feel ichy....it had been about 3 years i'm not doing those activities...hahhaa...and next week is a mid semester holiday..i don't really know when will i go back to johor...maybe on saturday after my cocurricular activity or on sunday....daa~~

lallala

oh tomorrow is a holiday and i'm planning of going to extream park shah alam with my sclc family...i think it should be fun..hehhe..tadi i went shopping AGAIN!! oh please don't u dare asked me going for shopping again..if not i will spend my money on it...beberapa hari ini banyak menghabiskan masa keluar bersama-sama kawan2 sebab terasa bosan bila balik bilik...mmg rutin la balik bilik je on9 then tido...xde intention nak pegi bilik sape2...so mmg mengurungkan diri di dalam bilik je la..and sampai ade senior yg ckp " eh, x pnh pon tgk awak kt level" hheheh...dh aku mmg dok dlm bilik je...keluar pon gi toilet je la..kalau x pg kls..weekend lak asyik lesapje...bkn pg mne pon...tido umah kawan xpon ade meeting and what so ever..ape nak jadi..hhahah..:P

touching2

hari yg sibuk ye kawan2...and i just called my lovely mom..how i missed her so much!!huaaa...touching lak kn...then mak tnye la.."ok ke dok kat kolej tu?"...and sy pon terdiam.."ok la kot"...then mak tnye lg..mkn slalu ngn sape and sy pon menjawab klu ptg mkn sorg2 je kt bilik sebab kwn2 semua duduk luar...hhuhu..touching ni...tiba2 je sedih lak kn..lps bual2 then panggilan pun tamat..tibe2 je selang beberapa minit mak kol lagi...kali ni mak cakap ajak la kwn2 dok skali kat kolej...huhuhu..saya sangat terharu ..ye..rupa2 nya mak cam tau2 je saya tgh sedih kn..huhhu..(mother's instnct)...and ni yang buat saya tak sabar nak balik rumah ni...hhuhu...kesimpulannya saya tak happy sangat dok kolej...tak tau la kenapa ye...haish tiba2 je saya sangat touching skrg ni..huhuu..

the sad face

today i'm not that busy because i got only one class...it should be three class today but the other two classes were cancelled by my lecturer...i got a very big problem..why i can't stop spending my money on shoes,bags and blouses??it become a very big problem when my faculty held a book fair..this book fair not only selling books but also this girl stuff that i will look for and buy..huhu...since these three days i had spent my money buying three blouses and shawls...i think i should stop this habit..goodluck!!!and yesterday i got band practise and also debate practise..played new songs and all my fingers become swollen..i always have this problem..but actually i don't really like why my senior are putting more intention to other...i feel useless even i got the best flutist but she's not trusted me..what's the point of the award..even when i won the award ther'r some what we called as 'flies' moving around and showed their dissatisfaction face...and also said those unsatisfied words...hey people i'm not the one who choose to get those award...and i won't get those award if i'm not being chosen by u...u should encouraging me to stay long in this band..and i can see i will not stay for too long..maybe only after the 3rd sem then i'm off..oh i hate this..

currently at teratak hotstuff fatin farhana..hhehe...bestnye la diorg dok umh sewa ni kn..and me??oh xpnh tdo kt teratai pon lg...i don't really know why...ok my roomate was ok..she's a comander...and she's senior so i don't really know how to mix with her..so that's why i tried to run away from teratai..hoho...luckily evry sunday i got my driving class so i get my point of being away from teratai....and actually i can't stick to one thing and i don't think i want to stay for the whole years with brass band...i will try to stay for one sem..if i can't stand anymore then i will stay until the 3rd sem..

hari yg sgt busy...bru dpt tau yg lathn brass band ari slsa n jumaat mlm...huhuh...mmg penat ok..ni yg buat aku terfikir brpe kali ni..sma ada nk aktve brass band or x..klu x aku kna la dok luar ..huhuh..xpela bertahan la satu sem ni dlu,...agk2 aku dh mls...next sem aku dok luar la..huhuh....ok sy berasa sgt penat skrg ni..jap lg kul 2 kna pg bilik band lak..kna kms bilik band..bersabar la wahai farah yasmin ye..insyaallah ok je pasni..amin...

my progress

today i went to karangkraf.bhd to meet my aunt...actually to get some sponsorship for my sclc programme and everything's settled..one more thing i couldn't believe my eyes when my aunt said that she wanted her newspaper (sinar harian) to collaborate with my sclc programme..they will sponsor all the goodies bag and publicize it in the newspaper...OMG!!when i told khairul(my president), he said it's more than ok...we don't expect it will be a big event and it's also a very big task for us to handle this programme..insyaallah we will try our very best!!chaiyok2...i realised that i woke up early this week because i need to settle many things and it will go on with the same schedule next week...i'm missing my sleeping time during my holidays..huhu....all the best to me!!chaiyok2!!

my life

hari ni class start kul 8.30 pg, unfortunately lctrer xde...so class cancelled..dush2!! then meeting with my sclc group and stlled all things...after that i met nurus and i joined her contract class...unfortunately, once again class cancelled..so we went to perindu cafe and having our lunch..(even it's not lunch time)..then we went to tearatai...kms brg2 yg x dikemas lg sbb msih tggl kt rumah cousin kt seksyen 3...kms2 ape yg patut smntra nk tggu kls pukul 4 ptg...in a mean while, i watched korean movies(actually i'm not k-pop fan)...tgk2 cm best lak kn...after that register kolej and kna duplicate kunci bilik....so dlm 3.30 naik cab pg fak..and kls abis around 5.30 so balik singgah sekseyen 2 dlu ntk duplicate kunci...ingat kn balik tu nk pg beli buku skali tp kdai dh tutup..so kna la bli esok...huhuh...and i'm totally damn tired!!keluar pg and balik petang..almost every day...huhu...luckily no homework so i won't feel too exhausted...terasa sgt penat and nk tdo...zzzz.....

1st week of january..

today is wednesday and i just sit for computer test for my driving licence...and alhamdulillah i passed with flying colours!!yeepee...and now i'm curretly staying with my cousin at seksyen 3 shah alam..but i will remove soon to teratai college..maybe at the end of this week..and as i'm expecting i'm getting busier..totally i got class from monday to friday then i got my cocurricular activities on saturday morning..and on sunday i need to go to my driving class..conclusion???i got no weekends and no holidays..as i'll be staying at teratai so that means i need to be actively involved in brass band..i got my band practise every tuesday night...so yasmin u need to manage your time wisely..may allah help u through all this way..insyaallah...and i think i'm getting tougher and alhamdulillah i'm very happy with my life..:)