the sad face

today i'm not that busy because i got only one class...it should be three class today but the other two classes were cancelled by my lecturer...i got a very big problem..why i can't stop spending my money on shoes,bags and blouses??it become a very big problem when my faculty held a book fair..this book fair not only selling books but also this girl stuff that i will look for and buy..huhu...since these three days i had spent my money buying three blouses and shawls...i think i should stop this habit..goodluck!!!and yesterday i got band practise and also debate practise..played new songs and all my fingers become swollen..i always have this problem..but actually i don't really like why my senior are putting more intention to other...i feel useless even i got the best flutist but she's not trusted me..what's the point of the award..even when i won the award ther'r some what we called as 'flies' moving around and showed their dissatisfaction face...and also said those unsatisfied words...hey people i'm not the one who choose to get those award...and i won't get those award if i'm not being chosen by u...u should encouraging me to stay long in this band..and i can see i will not stay for too long..maybe only after the 3rd sem then i'm off..oh i hate this..