nobody perfect

alhamdulillah..praise to Allah for the life for all the tears and happiness..i have to cancel my trip to shah alam due to Bersih 2.0...i hope it was the best thing i can do..we doesn't know about the future right? and i hope that i still can feel the peacefulness of our country ..i don't want to be like our neighbourhood country..u feel fear to go to work,study and even to pray..i don't know what they are thinking..doing all these demonstration...don't u ever know the history of 1969? those who learn "Ethnic Relations" by heart not only for the examination surely u know the impact of all these stupid demonstration...if u think that i'm bias it's up to u..i know that the government of today is not perfect to be proud of..but can u guarantee that if we change into new government there will be a better life for us? it may look like i'm fear of the future..fear of new change..but it all i can do...it may look like i'm bias..supporting all government action but seriously i hate politics..even your agenda is all about muslim country or democracy..but from now on what i can say is i choose government where i can go for study without any bombing on my head or where i can perform my solah freely without any disturb...honestly i don't think that if we choose another government we can have a better life...it will take long time if the government change..all the policy, the economy become unstable and it will take a very long time for a new government to have a strong support..the simplest example is thailand..first of all the citizens choose the opposition and choose abhisit..then because of the dissatisfaction they choose the opposition which is thaksin ..we become the victims of all these things..why not we just secure the existing place we have and have a peaceful life...it's not only for the opposition side but for both side..we are still young and it's better for you all leaders either from opposition or government to think about the future of your young children..we are sick of all these things...

when u stop in the middle of the road

alhamdulillah hari ini saya masih lagi diberi kesempatan untuk menghirup udara segar dan bernafas di bumi Allah...manusia dan kesilapan tidak boleh dipisahkan..no man can live without doing mistakes..kadang-kadang manusia melakukan kejahatan bukan dengan kerelaan sendiri..bukan saya mahu memenangkan orang jahat tetapi jika kita selami "no man are born to be an evil"...saya belajar banyak perkara sejak akhir-akhir ini..situasinya di satu malam sebelum saya habis kerja adelah sorg pakcik datang merayu untuk tolong punchkn kad die..kerana kasihankan pakcik saya pun dalam ketidakrelaan menolong pakcik tersebut...seriously i don't know how i'm going to be a good lawyer because deep down in my heart i can easily help people..without thinking either the thing was right or wrong..i know in order to be someone in a legal field i need to have my own stand..i have to be someone who can handle the situation using the logical thinking not the emotional feeling...sometimes when u'r in the middle of your road and almost reaching the finishing line u may stop for a while and thinking of turning back to the starting point...instead of keep on running and walking to the finishing line without looking back or without stopping at any pit stop...which path should i choose?thinking~~

L.I.F.E

it's not easy to be strong
it really needs a lot of efforts
sometimes i wanna give up
but i hold my strength back
everything that happen has reasons behind it
no matter how difficult they are
we have to go through all these
without my magic wand
i couldn't do my magic spell
life is a game of chess
a good strategy is needed
poor defensive system u lost
Allah is always behind me
have a good faith
and walk straight towards it
insyaallah the victory is yours....

2nd visit to kl krash pad

safely arrived from kuala lumpur..i got a visit to kl krash pad...i'm having such a wonderful moment with kids and my sclc family...hhehehe...the kids called me 'kak kecik'..hahhaa..because of my size that make me looked like a primary school students instead of my real age..hye kids i'm 19 going on 20 this may..hheheh..but never mind..having and spending each time doing all those charity works filled the loneliness of my heart...i have to admit that these 2,3 days i feel sad about something...those things really broke my heart into pieces..but i have to be strong...and tomorrow i got class at 2 p.m until 6 p.m...and i need to start my revision now or else i will cry on the final exam..of course i don't want anything bad happen during my final..so farah yasmin start doing your work now!!!

end of february

• today ade sclc carnival month road safety campaign and closing ceremony..actually i'm not directly involved in this programme but because of the feeling to help my friend, i'm doing all these things voluntarily..insyaallah...even though it looked like i'm wasting my time with things that i'm not involve, but i don't think so...i love doing all these jobs with my sclc members... 
• on this 15th march i will attend a dinner..brass band dinner...and the theme for this dinner is white...oh!!!seriously i don't know what to wear...and i don't have any feelings to go the dinner as i got no best friends..but it's compulsory..so i need to go for new clothes...just simple cloth...maybe i can try online bisness..look for cute dress or blouse..it will save my time...hehhehe....and then i will mix and match...
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• then next week will be the toughest week i have..1stly, on wednesday i got my jpj test...hope everything's will be ok...insyaallah..amin...after that, on thusrday i got MALAYSIAN LEGAL SYSTEM II test and on friday CONSTITUTIONAL LAW II test...and of course i haven't start anything...chaiyok2!!!insyaallah i will doing my very best in all these three tests..amin...
• look for the future yasmin..all the best :) insyaallah...      
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kl krash pad

• i lve my new life!!!even i'm getting busier every day..but i still enjoy the way i live....i will always look forward to the future..if u don't get what u've dream don't worry..ur time will come...forget all the sadness just forget about it...even u'r staying in malaysia doesn't mean that u'r not clever...i really enjoy doing my law degree in malaysia....and i will always look forward for myself...
• for your information, just now i went to kl krash pad...it's such a visit and legal teaching...what i can say is..."i really enjoy doing those charity works"..i will always doing my very best to help people and the community..i got some plans regarding these charity works...insyaallah everything will be ok..":P
• emm jpj x lama lg...rase excited sgt...hopefully semuanya ok....
• esok klas start pukul 2 ptg..so hrapnye esok pagi dpt smngt ntk belajar..hahhaha...

the feeling's gone..
i hate such words
but i'm one of them now
i'm hating being like this
i don't know what to do
should i just run away
if i run away the problem's still in my mind
keep on touching my heart
my little tiny heart
never ever be like this anymore
but u'r too kind to be hurt
or i'm too kind to hurt u
will always be like this
heartless
i don't want to hope and to be hoped
i'm sorry
this is me
the way that i choose
will never have an end

coretan

salah aku ke?grrr...aish tolongla faham...bkn senang nk puaskan hati semua org...haish tibe2 ade orang nak marah lak kn...ni yang wat aku emo ni..huhuhu....haish x sngka gurauan aku jd pencetus kemarahan org..hhahaha...asal la aku ni jahat sgtkn...org serius aku main2...buat mr.x, maafla eh..tak berniat ape2 pon...haish nila padahnye bergurau..so kawan2 ingatlah ye bukan semua gurauan kite tu boleh diterima org....sometimes i was thinking..betulkah aku nak tunggu??haish..persoalan yang cukup berat..bukan xnk tggu tp aku xyakin dgn diri sendiri..sbb aku pon xtau perasaan dan pendirian diri sendiri...oh ye most of my friends will be going to oversea this year...and i don't know either i will be missing them or not? rase sedih pulak sbb xdpt nk fly sama2..huhuu...teringat impian kami time sekolah dulu.."nanti kite sama2 fly eh..buat medic sama2",,,huhuhu...time tu aku kecik lagi mmg nampak nk jd doktor je...but after spm...my friend got the offer..doing medic at oversea...and i??? i got the offered to do my law foundation and i managed to do my degree in law...tak bersyukurkah aku??mmg aku bersyukur cuma kdg2 kenangan lama tu dtg menyinggah..untuk kuatkan semangat,,"all is well" ala2 cerita 3 idiots...maybe rezeki kita xsampai lg kan...dan untuk awak yang bakal fly nanti...congratulations and do achieve your dream...that's what friends are,,

my progress

today i went to karangkraf.bhd to meet my aunt...actually to get some sponsorship for my sclc programme and everything's settled..one more thing i couldn't believe my eyes when my aunt said that she wanted her newspaper (sinar harian) to collaborate with my sclc programme..they will sponsor all the goodies bag and publicize it in the newspaper...OMG!!when i told khairul(my president), he said it's more than ok...we don't expect it will be a big event and it's also a very big task for us to handle this programme..insyaallah we will try our very best!!chaiyok2...i realised that i woke up early this week because i need to settle many things and it will go on with the same schedule next week...i'm missing my sleeping time during my holidays..huhu....all the best to me!!chaiyok2!!

my life

hari ni class start kul 8.30 pg, unfortunately lctrer xde...so class cancelled..dush2!! then meeting with my sclc group and stlled all things...after that i met nurus and i joined her contract class...unfortunately, once again class cancelled..so we went to perindu cafe and having our lunch..(even it's not lunch time)..then we went to tearatai...kms brg2 yg x dikemas lg sbb msih tggl kt rumah cousin kt seksyen 3...kms2 ape yg patut smntra nk tggu kls pukul 4 ptg...in a mean while, i watched korean movies(actually i'm not k-pop fan)...tgk2 cm best lak kn...after that register kolej and kna duplicate kunci bilik....so dlm 3.30 naik cab pg fak..and kls abis around 5.30 so balik singgah sekseyen 2 dlu ntk duplicate kunci...ingat kn balik tu nk pg beli buku skali tp kdai dh tutup..so kna la bli esok...huhuh...and i'm totally damn tired!!keluar pg and balik petang..almost every day...huhu...luckily no homework so i won't feel too exhausted...terasa sgt penat and nk tdo...zzzz.....

1st week of january..

today is wednesday and i just sit for computer test for my driving licence...and alhamdulillah i passed with flying colours!!yeepee...and now i'm curretly staying with my cousin at seksyen 3 shah alam..but i will remove soon to teratai college..maybe at the end of this week..and as i'm expecting i'm getting busier..totally i got class from monday to friday then i got my cocurricular activities on saturday morning..and on sunday i need to go to my driving class..conclusion???i got no weekends and no holidays..as i'll be staying at teratai so that means i need to be actively involved in brass band..i got my band practise every tuesday night...so yasmin u need to manage your time wisely..may allah help u through all this way..insyaallah...and i think i'm getting tougher and alhamdulillah i'm very happy with my life..:)

my last words..

tomorrow is friday and that means i will end my semester holiday and going back to uitm..existing but not living...how i hate this moment..be cool yasmin.pretending being a happy-go-lucky girl but inside it's not what u'r expecting..and now i'm fighting with my own emotion , conflict of myself...haish...i become mad!!long2 time ago when i was in my childhood years i was always wanted to be an independent girl..don't want to put all my dependancies on my parents..but as time goes by, i always need my parents to be on my side...btw i would like to congratulate to malaysian team for winning the suzuki cup..one thing that i realised all malaysian said this "i'm proud to be malaysian"..but i would like to remind u and also myself that being a patriotic is not only when we win the cup or etc, but all times..emm maybe i can be a patriotic person by thinking positively that new sem will be the unforgettable memories..=)

transformer ~

transformation..

i need to transform to a new farah yasmin

leave the old yasmin

forget the past

always look forward for the future

a better future

be futuristic

u have a very long journey and it will never end

even u die u still have the after life

so life is endless

a bundle of problems are waiting for u

if u're not strong enough

then u will stuck in the middle of your road

so what u'r waiting for

keep on moving

keep on crawling

and keep on running

until u find the end of this road....

shopping again..

just now went shopping with my mother,brother and sisters..i think i should stop from spending lots of money on shopping..this holiday i spend my time going to jusco for shopping..hahaha...i spend about RM 100+ at MPH..i bought few books such as Rayyan Fantasi written by Ramlee Awang Murshed, P/S I LOVE U and two novels of Harry Potter..already read all HP books but not my books..so just a collection of HP books..then once again i bought a shawl for myself and a tudung for my mom..as a gift..and after this i hope no more shopping for me...if not i will be spending lots of money...

my little thought..

when i feel sad, i will laugh

when i laugh doesn't mean i'm in a good mood

when i feel sad, i like to hide it

when i hide it, i don't want people to bother me

when i feel sad, i'm starting looking at myself and ask:

"hey you what's the point of being sad"

and i answer,

"then what u want me to be"

the answer is:

"look at the sun, it shines and when time comes, the shines fade and no sunshine.and the moon comes..even the moon comes the sun still shine every day..keep on shining on people who needed.."

then i was stunned...

dreaming

just now i watched video clips from youtube...searching for songs played by flute..watched how they played those songs and it make me feel like having my own flute...if i'm not mistaken one flute cost about rm 2000..maybe if u'r good in negotiating u can get rm1000++...so i started dreaming of having my own flute...hahhaha....actually i started played flute since i was in my 2ndry school..but due to some reasons i quit when i was in f2..so it has been 6 years...luckily i can still remember all notes...then i'm expecting my next sem will be more busy than 1st sem...so need to prepare mentally and physically so that i can go through all the business ...good luck!!!

no one at home!!ok...that's a lie...there'r my little brother and sisters..but i feel lonely...geram!!because my 13th year old sister went for shopping with her friends...she said she wanted to buy her school bag..i don't have friends within my area as i was not getting my primary and secondary education here...i was in the other school..no wonder i don't have any friends..sometimes i feel jealous seeing my other siblings hang out with their friends...and i??sitting alone at home..dush2!!!reading novel, blogging, facebooking, sleeping and watching tv..ok next semester holiday i need to do sthg so that i won't feel bored..maybe i can find a job...hahhha...i'm not a big fan of korean movies..so i don't know what to do..just now my mom called from langkawi..she said she bought me a blouse..tq mommy!!i feel jealous seeing my friends enjoying their jpa scholar's by travelling to kl...when will i get my jpa??too bored..ok tomorrow is my brother's birthday..his 17th birthday...maybe i will bake him a cake..as i don't know what to do..lallalalal...

what my heart is saying..

i hate this!!!!i hate this!!!not because i don't try to understand....i tried to understand but i couldn't stand this thing..this thing totally made me crazy!!!oh i really love this song..*unintended by muse....with flute and this piano version..mmg sgt sesuai ngn jiwa aku....if i sad i will listen  to this song..and now i'm listening to this song..klu gembira pon ske dgr lgu ni....ya Allah show me which path should i follow...i'm in delima ya Allah...please give me courage and patient to choose the best for my life...

waiting and hoping

lagi 3 minggu je dh nk start new semester..so that's mean i wil get new friends,new class and new lecturers...but i don't find it's interesting as i still missing my old classmates of lwa01/02b...degree is not like asasi where i enjoyed every moment i had with my friends..especially my clssmtes..i still can remember how i gone through my degree without fun...until i met nurus...when i met her, i got my happiness however when she extended her sem, i started feeling lonely..that's why i hope next sem i will be in the same class with phana..we both like to respond to lecturer during lecture time...same with nurus...so will my new semester be an enjoyable or dull???i hope the first...oh people u don't know how i was during my 1st sem...alone went to brass band...alone went to class....i tried to be such a loner person but i know i need at least a friend..just one friend that can keep accompany me...seriously i felt lonely especially after nurus gone...only after class i started 'lepaking' with phana and her roommates..thanks sa'dy,nani n syasya....:)....and i started doing all loner person activities such as went to SACC mall alone,ate kfc alone and many activities...at first i didn't care much however, after long time i felt crazy!!! so i hope next sem will be more meaningfull moment...

THANK YOU ALLAH..

Assalamualaikum to all of u...today is my best day...yeah..i just got an offer to matriks...i got matriks kedah(KMK)..after waiting for a very long time to further my study..at last i got it...i never mind if i couldn't further my study at any prestigues university in oversea...yeah...even in local university i can be the best if i study hard...right?....there's a lot of chances waiting for me outside there...insya-Allah...i will not let this 2nd chance to slip away....for mum n dad...i will do my very best for both of u..maybe after this i will a 1000 km from both of u but i will keep it as a challenge that i must face in fact to success in my life....i love u mom n dad..that i call ayah n mak...


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